and ii was like bleah

19 JAN 19Y/O HAIKAL

2012-01-24T16:03:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 19TH HAIKAL LESTA!

Ok, I've been busy with my first ever suckish retail job. That's the reason why this post came in late. So anyways, here's a very special entry dedicated to the very special guy up there in the pictures. See, he so cute right? So ya, 19 jan was his birthday. Unfortunately, I can't be there to surprise him or whatsoever because I had to work, FREAKING FULL SHIFT. Sigh. But he came over the day before and also the day after his birthday to Suntec. Till now, I'm still wondering why was he being so sweet. Confirm got something up his sleeves. Haha jk. So here's the wishing part. Happy (belated) 19th Birthday my dear! Damn, I wish I could be there to celebrate your very first birthday with an ehemm but since our schedules were so not on our side, I hope you understand. Hope all those surprises and wishes and gifts from your friends and families had made you happy. A happy you = a happy me. I'll make up for it, but it's gonna be late though. And I hope you'll enjoy that day too. Hmmm, all the best for in your last teenage year and also in your future endeavours. And a very happy you in years to come. Amiiiiin~

P.S: Sorry if I'm not really good with all this kind of wishes but I want you to know that I really love you.

9 of 366

2012-01-13T22:21:00.003+08:00

Got my results on 9 Jan. As much as I badly want to try meet the school's expected target, I was actually kinda satisfied with the results I got. Heh. Alhamdullilah. So, before we enter school, there was some attire check. I don't know why on earth my hair colour was caught, it seems pretty natural to me. But haiyaa, don't care la. Thank God Syamz was with me. then Grace came. We got some spray from Cherie, hahah THANK GOD AGAIN. It was fun seeing how we helped one another with the spray. Lol.

So ya, we reached the hall exactly at 2 but we were sort of late. Then some talks about how our cohort did, AND WE WERE FUCKING FANTASTIC. Then they mentioned some top students. Sigh, they were so clever, I felt so demoralised. I scared my L1R5 was above 20 already, cause only 30 of my classmates were eligible for JC. THEN I GOT MY RESULTS. My sister and Fatin [they so sweet they come all the way from NYP :')] opened my slip and I saw their eyes like O.O. HAHAHA, but with a smile. I GOT A FUCKING 15. DAMN I'M PROUD OF MY ACHIEVEMENT. From 31 ehhhh my prelims 2 :') So I had 3 B3s and 3A2s, really cute. Like my birthday, 2/3/1995. Heh!

Then, head to manpuku for some Green Tea Ice Cream with Nadz and Izah. B came shortly after. We hang around a little while more then tadaa, I went home to change and got a treat from B at Manhattan Fish market at Changi City Point. Gosh that place sucked balls. Lol, seriously. But he was so sweeeeeeet, to come and be there for me and congratulate me and share the happiness together :')

DID I MENTION I'M OKAY (I THINK) WITH ENBZ. I THINK WE'RE GOOD. I pass her a letter on 9th Jan too. And then we whatsapped some nice things. I miss her. Hehe! So, I guess my page 9 of 366 was one of the bestest days of my life and I thank God for everything. Alhamdullilah :)

POLY OPEN HOUSES

2012-01-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, so........... I went to TP and RP Open House only. I wanted to go NYP, then like no time. So I gave it a miss. Went RP with Nadia and we got a free tour from Hajar. Met my b to pass his sweater back, heh. He's so cute like afhicaevkadscxsc. SO RP AYYY, I think some of my choices for the courses in the school would be New Media, or those Health Promotion thingy or the sports science thingy. Heh, supah cool. TP the next day. Went with Izah, Atika, Syamira and Nadia. TP RAWKS! Hahaha, seriously. I kinda like TP. Everything about TP. I think I'm just gonna go TP. But the courses! I'm not sure which one to pick. There's like Pharmaceutical Science, Retail Management, Integreated Facility Management and visual arts thingy or what. Sigh, I'm confused. Hmm, shall see my results first.

Speaking of which, results will be out on Monday. I can liek shit bricks anytime. I'm really nervous. But like some people keep telling me: Hope for the best, Prepare for the worse or or The greater the expectation, The greater the disappointment. So I'm just gonna hope for less than 20 for my L1R5. I know its still a bit too high, but my prelims were like what, 31?! So ya. Heh, think I'm gonna sleep now. Goodnight world! <3

2012

2012-01-01T11:41:00.005+08:00

AND ITS 2012 GUYS! LIKE FINALLY.

Yesterday, well, was so called my first ever new year celebration. With ze maternal side. And it was funnnnn. The purpose was to celebrate my granny's unknown birthday (seriously, she has an xxx on her DOB) and to start the new year together. So we had some really good time, with good food and company. So around 11 plus, my cousins and I head up to some block to catch some fireworks. They recorded some videos and I took some pictures. Ahhh we can really atually see the fireworks from Ubi! And that was my first time ever to catch a new year's fireworks live in Singapore. Heh! Then got a text from my b, that was really sweet eh, but my connection keep getting error. Sigh, me loves you! So once we're done, we head back home and wish people "Happy New Year" along the way. Hahaha perangai manz they all. Some wished us back, some just totally ignore us. Oh wells.

Ohhh yes, and I get to see my bollywood crush yesterday at some wedding. He looked at me, sort of, I think. Hahaha, and they danced for their sister's wedding. So cool. Good end good end. But so sad we gotta leave early. There's always next time.

So its 2012. I still can't feel the difference yet. Cause I still haven't shower and all. Lol. But WOKAY, NEW YEAR, NEW START. BRING IT ON! ^^

TWO.

2011-12-30T14:32:00.003+08:00

Just two more days till the new year. This whole week has been great so far. I've been going out, and its time for a stay home Friday. Haha, totally a wrong day to be at home, but whatever. I need some alone time like this once in a while. Went out yesterday to catch a movie WE BOUGHT A ZOO. It felt like as if that movie bore the person I was watching with, but its quite nice anyways. About family and stuff like that. Bought a 8GB memory card for my phone, yay me! Now can download all those glee songs to my phone. Anddd to you, a picnic would be nice judging from that small one we had yesterday. So yes, about 2012, I need to come up with reasonable resolutions such that there's a possibility I can meet them. Hopefully. So for a start, I hope I can make friends with lots and lots of people in my new school, and just be confident in myself. AND COURAGEOUS. Amiiiiiiiiin.

Anyways, changed the blogskin. THIS IS UBER CUTE!

2011

2011-12-28T23:29:00.005+08:00

SO EVERYBODY, haha, another entry's coming right up. Eh like fun la talk to myself. But okay, yay. Today's gonna be about how 2011 has been for me. Anyways, it 4 more days till 2012.

Well, I started off the year pretty good. My appeal to drop some subjects was approve and A NEW HAPPY ME was reborn. And also, I get into Mdm Lau's POA class which had helped me a lot. So academic wise, it was a smooth journey. But I wished I had been more hardworking and get my homework done and all. I'm sure I can do better than the results I get for my prelims. Oh wells, no point crying over spilled milk. I just hope that my Olevel results is satisfying for me. InsyaAllah.

So besides that, I've became closer with super cool people, like Syamira, Grace, Yiling, Atz & Fadiah. I don't know why now but I wished I had known them earlier. They so cute, funny, cool, spontaneous, caring and all those positive words you can find. I'm not kidding. They made my Sec 4 life not as lonely as Sec 3, and also, I don't know how they did this, but I feel motivated to study hard when I'm around them. These people good influences I tell you! Hahaha.

BUT IN 2011, MY FRIENDSHIP LIFE WAS A HARD AND ROUGH JOURNEY. I don't know why do we have to end it like this, but like I say, things happen for a reason. Yeah, but I really wanna know what's the reason. Truth is, I wish the four of us could still be together. Imagine how fun it'd be if we had went for Pahang together. But anyways, since 1's down (I think), let's talk about the other 2. Well, we did have some small bickerings here and there, but I'm glad we manage to still pull through and stay together till the end. No matter what happens, they are still the best people in my life and will always be. i love you girls! :') And its sad that we probably have to separate next year. I just hope we'll keep in touch.

Well, the "you-know-teenage-love-life" for me was........................ heheheheh. I think its great that F and I are still friends. BEST FRIENDS 4EVA DUDE! Like we've planned. (y) ANNNDD so about that love life, heeehh. Well, I'm so glad I've met the one. I'm hoping he's the one. We need to touch up on our trusting issues, well my part of trusting issues. But other than that, I'm glad I met him. He's funny, caring and sweet and outgoing. Okay, maybe I should keep guys like him close to me. He's so dear and important and I want him to know that I really love him. From the bottom of my heart, I dooooo. Here's a less than 3 for you <3.

SO OVERALL, 2011 has been one of the nicest year for me. Everything was just good, not perfect, just good. I mean, as long as I see myself smiling most of the time, its good enough for me already. But yes, 2012, new school, new everything. There you go, another change in life. I hope it'll be better and God willing, I can be a better person as well.

ENBZ

2011-12-23T19:58:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA OH GOSH ELYA RECENTLY READ MY BLOG. HELLO ELYA *waves hand*

Hmmmm, i feel like starting a blog again, butttt i think its nicer posting stuff when nobody's gonna read it as they assume my blog is probably dead. So yay, gonna write something in today.

Honestly, I'm missing my girlfriend. That kind of best girlfriend, BFFs thing yaa. Its like I've known her since sec 1 and to end it like that, its just so bad, so tragic. But at the same time, I'm happy with her life now, she seems happier. SHE IS.

But everyday, I can't stop myself from imagining us hanging out to go shopping or even just lepak at some voideck, or somewhere high class (if we rich a bit laa). Especially during times after os like this. We'd probably be talking about stuff only God knows what. I miss her nonsense and her fearless attitude.

But like people always say, things happen for a reason.

Anyways, i don't really know if we're friends or not. Okay, judging by the way we act, I don't think we are but the truth is, when she sent me that text, that very last text she ever sent to me and I didn't reply, honestly, I wasn't ready to let her go. Who in a right mind would wanna end a soon-t0-be 4 years of friendship?! And so, I choose not to reply. Cause I don't know how to reply or what am I suppose to say. So my dear friend, the fact is I have never let you go. You can come back to me anytime. My arms would always be open for you. Let bygones be bygones. i'm sure all of us have learnt somethings from this incident.

But okay, no one's gonna read it. So ya. Nevermind.

Lol

2011-09-03T00:50:00.010+08:00

Since no one is gonna read this post anyways. I just gonna write an entry 'cause I just feel like it.

Okay, its been like a year already since we're over. And come to think of it, I swear to God he's one of the nicest guy I've came across in my life and i'm really thankful for it. Looking back at 2009 posts, I can confirm with you I was a really ugly ugly kid. LOL. And I'll never know how on earth a guy like him can fall for me. Not tryna say I'm pretty now or what, but really, I was so ugly that words can't describe that look. BUT HE, he was there for me. Calling me beautiful, gorgeous, pretty even on days which I can just looked like an underground potato. He was there for me to hear out my problems and my rants. He was there to tolerate my immaturity and dude, for that, I really salute you. 'Cause come to think of it, I was such a real pain in the ass. That's what makes you pretty special.

I'm glad we went through a healthy break up. Even though, for a short period of time, I badly wished you were still mine and how sad and depressed I was each time you told me to move on. Yeah, every time you said it, I lied to myself and to you that I already had, but deep inside, we both knew I wasn't. Still, thank you so much for not giving up on me and leave me hanging. Thanks for still regarding me as your friend. It means a lot.

NOW, I'm sure you'll be glad to know that I've moved on. I mean, I'll still have flashbacks of us and those good times we had, but I'm more capable of managing it now. Really. See, I can even survive for weeks without talking to you, but I really missed seeing your face. Just your face, chill. Before I end, I want you to know that you'll be one of the greatest memories that I'll keep for the rest of my life. Afterall, its always their first love that people won't forget. I also want you to know that you're a great guy. And a great guy like you will deserve a really awesome girl. Just wait, or maybe try your luck. I know you suck at making conversations with girls, especially with those you're interested in, but hey, if that girl really likes you too, everything will fall in naturally. Patience is virtue, and I'll hope at least we can be friends forever. Cheers!

Dude

2011-07-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hola, I'm back. Just for today. Cause, I just realised I had a blog and I wanted to change back the background to this nice pretty pretty pink one. ^^v

2011-02-20T10:57:00.001+08:00

Seriously, don't I deserve another chance? :'(

K, bye.

2010-11-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

Ok, obviously I won't be updating this blog that much or maybe at all. Baaah! So ya. Anyways, sayonara everyone. I'm moving to Toronto, Canada. HAHAHA! Fuck, just kidding. K, bye. Forever. I won't delete this blog though. Memories..., I'll miss every single one of them.
Now will you please just don't do this to me and find a way to steal my diary.
I'm dead bored! >:(

2010-09-13T19:59:00.001+08:00

15 days to EOY. I'm still not prepared.
I wanna remove you from my friend list, can I?
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Blog.

2010-09-09T12:46:00.001+08:00

THE BLOG IS DEAD!
SO WHAT IF MY GRAMMAR SUCKS?!
I know not many will read, so heck care. I just wanna write my hearts out.
I have this strange insecure feeling in me. I don't know what it is.
Is it friends, family, studies? Idk, I really don't know.
This sucks. Sumpah.

_|_

brother

2010-08-15T20:21:00.001+08:00

I swear to God, I don't like my brother.
He disgust me, his attitude disgusts me.
Sometimes, I wish I had a better brother than him.

disappointment

2010-07-30T21:02:00.004+08:00

Malay supplementry was awesome, I really enjoyed it. Cikgu Naim, jika anda sedang membaca blog saya, saya ingin Cikgu tahu bahawa Cikgu Daniel Phua sangat mensanjungi Cikgu. (Y)

Cried after school after reflecting on my CT grades. It was seriously damn something to me. Okay, anyways, there was CD just now. Pretty much of a disappointment I guess. All I want is to teach Recovery Position for just short while and they die-die ask me go help to do CD board which was still not done yet -.-'. Haiz, whatever la.

What made the day worst was that she made me cry in interchange. She was the very first girl to have done that to me. You're no longer you, can't you see? Have you ever sit back and think back about all the sacrifices I've done for you, even the very smallest one? Each school day, there will always be one sacrifice I've made. You think again. But that's not what I want to tell you. The thing is, you don't seem to be appreciating me anymore. I know, I rude. I don't know why. Maybe you know why. You're ruder. Can't you be like any other GIRL who can lend a helping hand, be a shoulder to cry on and someone who don't mind lending a listening ear. All I want is that. You can comment on it but all this while, you've been giving me harsh comments. How can I not be rude to you? I'm really disappointed in you just now, really badly superly. You can just say you're sick. You didn't even tell me. You know, I will always forgive you even if you don't ask for it, but I'm not the kind of person who can easily forget what has happened. :(

Friend.

2010-07-24T16:42:00.002+08:00

Heya, blogging time. I miss a friend of mine. He's such a busy man this year, and if I'm luckt enough, I can see him only once a week and that's during tuition. Sometimes, I wonder if he misses me. Not in the r/s way, in a friendship way of course. I wanna hangout with him like how we use to, as a group. I miss hearing his jokes and stuff. Like seriously, what can I say? He's a nice guy. However, I can see some change in him. I don't really like the change but there's nothing I could do about it right? Nah, nvm. Okay, whatever. I'm PMS-ing anyways. Chiao!

leher.

2010-07-19T20:37:00.003+08:00

I SPRAINED MY NECK! :'(
Its such a pain in the neck maan, seriously. In the morning, I was drying my hair with a towel then, I think I use oo much force then, 'kahpiak', I sprained this neck. Then, I cannot wear my PE shirt, (thank God). Heh! At school, I was like looking at one side at the same time trying my best to look at the other side. There was this time, I wanted to see something outside the class so, I turned quickly and 'boom', I shout a soft, "ahh!" Ouch mann you.

Then, a strange looking insect was on my hand. It look so blueish with quite medium-sized wings. I shouted the soft, "ahhh!" again. Then, I went home, alone today. *sobs* :(

share of toughts

2010-07-15T21:13:00.005+08:00

TODAY, WAS THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE! Pacman, I love you. ♥

Alright, I'm gonna do some cyber bulling now. At least, I won't be mentioning that retard's name. Cos I'm nice, not like her.

This girl, her brain very senget. I guess that's part of the reason why she had to take up such immature action. She and her bestie is having some problems with someone who's really close to me (I shall call the someone who's close to me 'A'). After removing, or should I say blocking 'A' from her facebook account, after a few months, she blocked me. I don't know whats her reasons. Probably, didn't wanna let 'A' check her account or she despise me as well since I'm close with 'A'. If that is the reason, that is just plain immature. Get that in your head lady. Even that bestie of her didn't remove 'A' or me, I can say she's being mature here. Much mature than you.
Slanted brain.

Look, I know you would never read this blog, if you are it means that, you're stalking me to get updates on 'A', most probably. Or, you don't have a life. Ooo, a stalker. HAH! I just feel like writting this cos I wanna tell you that your action is just plain immature and it has to be commented, like seriously so that you could see yourself in the mirror. I just hope it won't get crack before you even look at it. So what if you're 2 years older than me, at least I don't remove or block the person if I'm having trouble with them. Kental like daging.

My point here is, I wanna tell you that YOU ARE KENTAL! Really, you brain very slanted. That probably explains the reasons for your actions. Chiao daging. -.-'

Blog.

2010-07-08T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hi blog. Diary has been my bestfriend these few weeks. So, most of my private thoughts are in there. Its not necessary for you alright? The reason why I'm blogging now is because I think blogger sucks and this account will be a bit dead soon. That's a warning. So, do "visit" here often ah! I'm really tired with my life now. I'm sick and tired. Sometimes, I wish that my life ends here but I've not done enough good deeds to go to havean. There's a lot of things I wanna wish for. But if my wishes do come true, it will be a miracle. GRRRRRRRR! __ this.

tuition

2010-06-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

Urgh, I wanna quit tuition. Its like I prefer to go tuition with someone than to go alone so that I can study better. Then, adalah hamba Allah ni kate yang aku ngada2. Different people, different way ah. What a friend I have.

My timetable.

2010-06-26T13:46:00.003+08:00

That's my timetable -.-' Grr, still the same old timing to go home. As for recess, (since Nadia and Izah haven't reply), I will only have the same recess with Erra on Tuesday and Wednesday. Luckily, Sis is going to have the same recess with me on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Yay! I just hope I will have the same recess with Nadia and Izah on Monday. Amin! Alright, I need to continue on my homework. Its killing me, there's too many.

snco

2010-06-19T13:56:00.008+08:00

Alright guys, I'm baaack! Yay. I've been mia-ing cos I attended this grueling 5 days course for my CCA. Its called SNCO Course. Woah! It was so, err. I can't really describe it. First day, I was a little bit late. Kena marah siket je. Okay, then second day I felt like quitting cos I really cannot tahan the waking up so early in the morning and the going back journey. I felt like crying but I was too tired to cry so I slept when I reach home.
Then, came the third day. It really made my day cos I finally made some friends. So, I decided not to quit. Just 2 more days, so I tahan. Fourth day was footdrill gold and MOI. I failed footdrill gold and I was like soo disappointed with myself. Like very very disappointed. Their rules and regulations were so strict. Okay, whatever. I soon got over it after I was done with my MOI cos I felt like I did a good job on that one. Last day, it was awesome. Scenario-based learning assessment was damn shiok. I could really feel the Charlie spirit lor. But Oscar won for that thing. Then, POC. After rehearsal, we changed to our kilat uniforn and the guests came in. Then, they announced the Best Platoon and it was CHARLIEEEE! Siol ah, I was expecting Oscar, again. We got a ceritificate. Then, POC already, we take pictures, the Sirs gave us something but we didn't gave them anything. Hahaha! Okay, blablabla, eat at LJS for celebration. Went home, sleep like pig till 7am. Siang siol.

love.

2010-06-13T19:55:00.006+08:00

Hello everyone! Heh. OMG, yesterday was really really an awesome day for me. Went out, like finally. Met Izah, Nadia and Fi'la at small mac. Surprisingly, Izah was the first one to sampai. Woah! Kudos. Okay, then we had breakfast at Mac, I shared Breakfast Deluxe with Izah. Yum! Lol, then we make our way to the MRT station and finally, dropped off at HarbourFront. We bought some stuff at Giant and then, made our way to Sentosa. I could see the castle of the USS from the train, I WANNA GO THERE! Then, we except for Fila walked to Pahlawan Beach cos she was skating. Haha! We swim, swim then, saw Maheera. HEH! We ate this Tuna thingy and its so not nice ah. Ewww! Then, we clean ourselves using the opened shower until we are sand-free. It was nice. Hahaha! While Nadia go change, me and Izah took turns cleaning the inside of our pants. HAHAHA! Luckily, got no one.

Then, we made our way back to Vivo. We cari the toilet like cari ape seh. Then, there wasn't any Seoul Garden there and so, with the help of Nadia's mum, we made our way to Bugis Junction. At first right, we all look lost. Haha! Then, we were like relieved when we saw the map directory and of course, the four-eyed me, FOUND THE SEOULD GARDEN PLACE! Hahaha. Okay, I must stop bragging. We search search search, until we found it.

Then, at Seoul Garden was woooaaahh. Since it was weekend, we had to pay like $32 for the buffet. I owe Nadia $10. Heh, I will pay you back asap maaan. Then, we ate to our hearts' content. Nadia said she was happy to see us eating. Haha, wth man. Nadia was like the mother, the experienced one. Haha! It was so fun. The chicken, samosa. Ooooh, and Izah loves Beef like so much. Haha! We end off with ice creamm. AHHH, so niceee! Izah end off with her own-made Ice Kacang right? So, we sat for 1 and a half hour and took the MRT back to Tampines. We walked around Tamp Mall for a while, then Fi'la came. And home sweet homeeee!

Thanks for an awesome day yesterday ladies. Teehee! Love ya all.....

Oh, the post before, I can safely say its some miscomuunication. So, forget everything I wrote there. Besides, I was mad at that time. You knoww.

pigs

2010-06-11T21:13:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! You hurt me so deep deep. I cried and i'm still crying. I don't like it. I really don't. You don't trust me eh? Okay2. I understand, seriously. Which part am I in the wrong? I want to know, so that I can improve myself. You said, if there's anything changing about you or anything I don't like, I am suppose to tell you right? Okay, I hope you are reading my blog now. I want you to know that I really don't like you when you lied. Moreover, I'm your bestfriend, am I? Can you stop lying and make up excuses and just tell the truth instead. At least, to me. I will try my very best to help you. And even if you cannot find any way to contact me, I'm sure there is at least a public phone or a computer right?I really don't like it. To tell you the truth, if you are standing right in front of my face, I will cekik you. Sumpah! Cos I'm really mad and sad and disappointed in you. But I know I'm mad now, that's why I am acting this way. Well, I really hope you would read this post. I won't be ignoring you, but I will act like nothing has happened instead. I just want you to bear this in mind.

long one.

2010-06-11T12:13:00.004+08:00

Okay, I think I've not written a long post for quite sometime. Even if I did, I don't feel like I did. Haha! So just now, I go teman Mum go Tampines Mart. Had breakfast at Mac then, went to the market. Mum almost tripped and luckily, God saved her. Amin. Then, we took a bus back home. Mum treat me 2 t-shirts and a pair of slippers. Yay! I felt bad, so later I will buy for her this slipper which she likes to use in the house. I wanna go big bookshop later, wanna buy some papers. For someone's birthday. Haha! I still don' know what to get for him.

Anyways, am I still fighting with that girl? We didn't talk this morning. I guess we still are. I won't elaborate what happen, but she really pissed me yesterday. Then, this boy, become the batu api. He don't know anything, he keep quiet ah. Why must he extra go side that girl? I hate you people (only yesterday).

Woah, the next thing. I was doing well in living my life as what it is now, but that person keep appearing everywhere. I mean, in the comp and I can't help it but to go to that person's profile in fb. Aiyo, I don't like it cos later, I get this uneasy feeling. But I thought I didn't care? I guess I still do, but not so much. Heh!

Okay, so I can't wait go sentosa tmr. I just wanna have fun. FUN! So, I'll play play with the water and sand. Okay ah, I give up writting alr. Bye.

oollaa

2010-06-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

GOING SENTOSA WITH MY LADIES THIS SATURDAY! Rock onnn. \m/

tsk.

2010-06-09T19:48:00.002+08:00

Should I upload the sec 1 and 2 pics up on facebook? I don't know man. It seem like a hard choice to make. Blah, whatever. I will, soon I guess. But not now. I miss 1D/2E, it feels like home then. Now, I feel like some... loner in that class. AAHH! @!%#$@ Okay, erm. I had fun just now, watching this Korea thingy. So funny, the story. I like Ki-Bum, he looks cute in that movie. -.-' Heh! K ah, binget ah dengan orang2 skarang, I wish Edward had bite me when I was a baby, so that I can forever be Bella and Edward's child. HAHAHA! K, shhh.

hello

2010-06-04T16:05:00.003+08:00

LIKE FINALLY, I'M DONE CLEANING MY ROOM! :D
Its like one of life's toughest challenges. It took me like 3 days to finish cleaning. Last time, it only took me 1 day. You see, the BIG difference. I found so many nice old stuff while cleaning. I need to start planning on stuff I need to settle during the holidays. Blablabla, erm. Should I go Street Revolution Jam? I'm still thinking when the thing is actually tmr. Idkla. Okay, I wanna go off now, reading Twilight. (Yes,, I know I'm lagging)

LOL.

2010-06-01T16:20:00.002+08:00

Operation cleaning room gagal habes. Hahaha! Computer, the bed, what a distraction. -.-' ANYWAYS, I miss my Mommy, Chiobu and Mango Pudding and Elya (I must think for her a nickname) Hahaha! I wanna go out sooooon. Yeah man. Okay, let me see. Just now, go teman Mum go pasar with sis, had breakfast at Mac. Yay! Oh, and Mum stopped working. Tsk, ape ah. But good for her la, that work place I tell you, can go and die. Hahaha! Eh, I had and awesome sleep last night. Suprisingly, I didn't woke up in the middle of the night and scare myself with imaginations which I would normally do. Phew! I don't know, but maybe, just maybe, I'm used to people calling me at night to bore me until I feel sleepy. And now, when people stopped calling me, I cannot sleep like properly. -.-'

Anger management.

2010-05-31T17:01:00.004+08:00

LOL! I kinda laugh to myself watching this video. Not only funny but there's something to learn from it too. Hahaha! Got it from Fiqah's facebook. I miss her and Refah. Anyways, I'M BORED! Like seriously. I will start Operation Cleaning Room tmr and hoping to get it done by Wednesday. YAY! Aku nak paint bilik. Lalalala~ I was browsing through friendster, read some old comments and I was like awwww. Good old times, I was kinda close with people that I'm not close with anymore. Hahaha! Okay, I got nothing to write about anymore. Bye.

I HEART MY BESTFRIENDS :D

Too late

2010-05-29T18:53:00.008+08:00

NORMAL FRIEND, YOU MUST READ THIS!

It's a random post that I really hope you, normal friend, would read. As I was thinking about the past (a thing that you don't wish to talk about now), I realised how pathetically immature and stupid and all the negative things I was. Well, I was good at one thing and that is to love you from the bottom of my heart. But then again, I was like wondering if I had loved you truly, why do I always keep hurting you especially you're someone I really love? Dah banyak kali you go and scold me, I still keep failing to prove you that I can be what you expected me to be. HAH, okay. So, that's the past.

Now is the future. And I've decided to grow up (like finally). Its not that I've decided, its like, I know I can do it this time especially when you're treating me like this, which I really really would like to tell you how much I fucking hate it. So, please stop doing it cos without it, I can grow up too okay?! The thing is I'd like to thank you for all these years of teaching me to become a better person. I'm not gonna promise you but, if I really try my best, in a few years time when you 'terserempak' with me, I'm gonna be the new 'Me' you've always wanted me to be. If you asking me why that long, I'd say it takes time for someone to repair a broken heart and attitude. Your birthday coming right? And I won't be free. First you say, you don't want anything then, you want. I'm confused so, I'm still gonna get you something. Nothing big, its the thought that counts right? Well, my point of writting this is to thank you for knocking some senses into my head all this while and how it finally pays off now. You get what I'm tryna say? :) So, NORMAL FRIEND, can we be FRIENDS now?

afraid.

2010-05-26T22:04:00.004+08:00

Now, I'm afraid. Kinda afraid. The thing is, I could see this thing gonna happen beforehand. I can't stop it from happening neither can I force myself to like things that I'm not interested in. Well, I tried but that's just not me. LOL, what am I thinking?! -.-'

ERRA ERRA ERRA, :(

long gone.

2010-05-23T21:19:00.003+08:00

Heya people! Have I been missing? I guess so. Got back my mid-year results and its terrible. Failed 3 subjects in all, Physics, Chem and A-maths. So, I've made up my mind to drop A-maths asap. I know, most will advice me not to, but, try be in my shoes. I don't work well with numbers. I just suck at Maths.

ANYWAYS, my bestfriend's birthday was on Friday last week. So, a very Happy Belated Birthday to Erra Nadhirah Bte Zulkifli. I love you bestfriend! Heh. We celebrated her birthday the next day cum Naval Open House outing. The open house was fun but Army open house was better. We took this Duck Tour for free, on a boat. So much of a tour, there wasn't any talking during the tour. Tsk. Then, we 'surprised' Erra with a celebration at Simpang Bedok. Right! I must have look dumb while trying to put on an act to make it not obvious for her. Heh, had fun though.

I'm bored but I still won't be doing my homework. School will start as per normal tmr. Great! I cannot wait for June hols. I really really wanna clean my messy room. I had enough living like this since Mid-Year. Ewwww!

Oral.

2010-05-17T20:24:00.002+08:00

ORAL! That sums up the Mid-Year Examinations for this year. Teehee. I sucked at reading, kinda and I talked about Taufik Batisah being my idol. Sobs. I wanted to talk about Sleeq but I couldn't put it in Malay words so, I just go with whatever I know about Taufik. Its was okaayy. Then, watched 'The Back Up Plan' with FKRR feat Fi'la & Elya. That movie, I tell you, is so not appropriate for this kind of age. We were acting so immaturely and not-opened. Bleah. I just hope I'll do well for my Mid-Year and so gonna be at full speed for End of Year. Time just seems to past so fast these days. At times, it will be slow and that's when those thoughts came. One tip to move on is to remember that time heals all wounds. (I did some search on the Internet) I just hope I can wait.

I'm sorry

2010-05-16T20:40:00.003+08:00

Hello. Just now, Sis, Fatin and me went to this HTC thingy. Saw adilah. But the thing is, I had fun there, somehow. Only for the last part and when I get to take free stuff. Heeee. We played this game where we go inside this room and find drugs samples. So fun, we get to messed up the whole room cos we were given only 2 minutes. Heh!

Anyways, kerana terlalu ikotkan perasaan semalam, aku sedang melalui padahnya. I was wrong and to you, I would like to apologise to have lied. I was sure enough I could do it, I had overestimated myself. I'm really sorry. I hope you would read my blog cos I won't be telling you to do that. And aku nak amek gambar impain aku ngan kau, just once. Binget ah tengok dorang je asyik dapat amek! You really have to understand me on this one. It has been one of my wishes even before we go our own separate ways. Now that we're back to our own lives, I wanna start on a new chapter. Just tuition and bitching buddies, nothing else. I promise. This ain't another bullshit. Seriously.

parkayu beech

2010-05-15T19:55:00.002+08:00

Life has been a rollercoster for me. There were the ups and downs.

The ups was as high as ever, especially when we formed this new group called 'D7VA'. It comprises of FKRR and HFQ. How sweet! We went swimming yesterday and it was oh so awesome. Took heaps of pictures and I had fun, really. Walking aimlessly at the mall after paper was fun too. I attended Umms' birthday party today. It was okay but nice. I threw an egg from on top. Heh! I threw an almost perfect throw.

Then, came the down part of my life. Something like, I don't believe you anymore if you said that you treat everyone the same cos obviously, I'm like a no one to you anymore. Ya la, I never graduate this year what, so you cannot talk to me right? Is that so? You know, I really hate how much I love you and I can't stand how much I need you. I keep denying that I have feelings for youwhen the fact is that, I still [heart] you. I wasn't ready when I asked for it, but I had to cos I wanna make you happy. Now that I see you more happier than ever, I have to admit how jealous I am. Still, I wanna assure you I'm choosing to move on in every way, and I will one day cos I don't want to get stuck in the past when you're far ahead. Seriously, will you follow my pace like you promised me to?

Toe-may-toe

2010-05-02T20:24:00.003+08:00

Heya, just got back home from some wedding ceremony. It was my cousin's, the first one of my father's side to get married. Well, we kinda bond a bit more this time. I had a great time, I guess. It cheered me up a little from all this madness I'm going through. Oh ya, went to the actual day of the wedding on a car. & the driver was my bro. I didn't share with you guys the news about him getting a licence recently, did i? Oh well, it was cool and scary. ANYWAYS, they called ambulance cos Nenek was sick, then, kakak Nana. So, it was like a 2-in-1 stuff. Yeah. Sis will upload the pics in her fb. and plan for tmr, studying with FKR. :)

Each day, I find words of encouragement for myself to keep me going. It's hard for me if you can't see and without your presence, its just seems harder. But for your sake and for mine, I just keep holding on.

I'm just lazy.

2010-04-24T19:40:00.002+08:00

Blog, I won't be updating you much these days. I've been busy and mid year is just around the corner. Well, I'm not saying I'm going to spend the time studying but, I'm just lazy you see. Facebook is just enough for me. I'm going to give you just brief updates but if the event is just an awesome one, I promise you that I will elaborate as much as I could. For now, I'm sick and went to Polyclinic with izah yesterday cos she was sick too. Ugh, slept like a pig after medication. Sports heats on Wed and Thurs, bah! I can never be good in sports. Its a big NONO for me. I think I'm gonna die, D: The coughing and sneezing is killing me. Okay Blog, see ya on the next decade. ( LOL, ROFL, LMAO, just kidding! :] )

Aku sedih.

2010-04-12T19:26:00.003+08:00

I keep telling myself to move on, but I'm stuck.
You left me hanging there when you're far ahead.
I must have been unimportant to you I guess.
Thanks a lot ah Fahmi for making me feel this way.
YES, I AM MENTIONING YOUR NAME COS I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER.

but yet, i'm still chasing after you.

Bleah.

2010-04-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NCDCC DAY! Yay. During the morning parade, I just fidget cos I don't care anymore rather than I turn pale and faint. Haha! I sweat like a lot in the morning, and can't really pay attention during afternoon lessons. It was just bloody hot. Then, did my Ezlink card at Pasir Ris, then, eat at Banquet with Erra, Carinna and Izah. It was fun! You know, after reading this guy's blog, trains of thoughts bombarded into my mind. (wow, bombarded) Haha! Its like, he feels like as if his alone, and lonely. But the thing is, he's not aprreciating things. When the person who care for him is just right in front of his eyes, he looks on the other side for this girl who he've been liking for quite a long time. I can say that he's unlucky maybe there's something lacking in him that doesn't make the girl interested in him, but dude, the girl who have been looking up on you is waiting patiently for you to love her sincerely. She's not a doll, cos she has feelings too. I know you won't read my blog, but I hope you will happen to pass by my blog.

We will learn, lead, and serve.

vb

2010-04-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

Before I wanna go sleep, here's a shoutout to the volleyballers in our school

YOU GO (WO)MEEN! CONGRATULATIONS ON THE WINNING AND ESPECIALLY THE B'BOYS!

Omg! I like watching volleyball matches if i got my friends with me and if our school is playing. It was awesome! Haha, shall not mention it. Anyways, just wanna update to ya'll that, I SUCK. Haha, okayyy, that was random. Nitey readers. *yawn*

bestfriends

2010-04-07T19:48:00.004+08:00

BEST FRIENDS! :)

Here's a thing, we call ourselves best friends but from the look of it, we are behaving like friendly schoolmates. It does makes a lot of difference. Yes, we may be of the opposite gender but there's no need for you to treat me like I'm someone really new to you. You can treat me like how you treat your other girl friends right? I mean you treat them more nicer than me lah from what I see, except that you will call me at times. But why, whats so wrong about treating me like a best friend girlfriend? Scared people think we are still together is it? Then, let that be their problem. You've even once stated that a friend is someone who would be there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else. Itu je eh, is the role of a friend. Ape lagi best friend? You may be asking me what more I want from you. This is the only thing I want from you. I want us to behave like how best friends should be. I know, you have your other guy friends that you prioritise more, that, I understand. You can put me behind at times, but there's no need for you to make me feel neglected cos that is what I'm feeling now.

DUDE, I'M YOUR BEST FRIEND. NOTHING MORE THAN THAT.

:D

2010-04-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

My dearest FRR help me to buy this ATM saving box for me just now, and here's a very big Thank You! to them. It pink colour and its nice. I kinda like it. Its like cool. Currently, i'm under a mission. To save money. Maaaak, simpan duit siket punye susah. Waduh! Nevermind, God will make a way. Lol!

MIA.

2010-04-04T19:27:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the MIA-ing. Back from Johor at Uncle's place and it was horrible I guess. The trip in the morning was pain in the bottom. Thick skin people who take the bus anyhow without queueing. The house was okay lah, except that its still plain. I prefer the Batam house. On the second day, I was like missing home alr. I cried, yes I did. I told myself that I'd rather went out with Erra and continue with out plan than to stay there. Urgh! I.MUST.FIND.A.DAY.TO.DO.THE.THINGS.I'VE.PLANNED! Luckily, there was Sleeq on TV that had cheered me up a little. Now, with just how many hours left till school, I still got tons of homework to do. The worse thing is I'm having a very bad headache. Adoi! Luckily, I'm done doing the groupwork stuff.

:D

2010-03-26T19:37:00.003+08:00

AWESOME! Today was like an awesome day for me. In school, we had ARTStreat, and we had a dance workshop! Luckily can spread, so I went with Fkrr. I think its called a funky dance or something. I love it and it was fast and catchy. Haha! K, so after that went teman someone to celebrate someone's belated birthday ah. Haha, alalala! So sweet at the ElMo. Shy shy cat. Then, we hand ard at street soccer and then, as we walked to KFC, we sing songs until it rained. It was really awesome. Then, ate at KFC. Then, went to this secret hangout place and its just between us. Shhh! So, we took pictures and even make some music videos. I tell you, its like really hilarious. I don't know if they're gonna upload it or not. So ya, then went to value shop and took 291 home. We were like , "Thanks for today in the bus when someone has to alight each time" Lols! K, now I wanna shower maan. I feel so sticky. Chiao! :D

Cun Saja

2010-03-25T22:28:00.009+08:00

Here are like some parts of the lyrics that I like, heh.

Walaupun ini bab yang baru
ada masa arahku tak tentu
Tetap rindu kehadiranmu
tidak patut kerna ku takut

....

Lagu ini bukan di radio setiap hari untukmu
Lagu ini tidak perlu kau kembali kepadaku
Lagu ini hanya ingin kau fahami
Ku sudah teruskan hidupku
Semua cun saja

....

Lagu ini tanda yang kamu masih sayangkanku
walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi
Lagu ini tanda yang ku masih rindukanmu
walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi

The reason I put this song not because I'm a lagger k? Haha! Its because I felt that this version is suitable for me to dedicate this song to someone.

M, you told me to move on. Now, I'm trying even though its kind of difficult for me. I never thought I could use this lyrics but in the end, I did. If you get the hints from the lyrics, I hope you would be able to understand me from now onwards.

AND YA, I KNOW ITS LIKE MY 3RD POST FOR THE DAY!

showing off.

2010-03-25T19:49:00.002+08:00

I JUST THOUGHT OF SHOWING OFF THIS MINDMAP I'VE MADE.

Haha, no lah. Just want to show as a display kind of thing.

:)

2010-03-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

HAVING E-LEARNING NOW!
Two good things happen so far,

-Malay Work didn't came out
-I can't seem to open Physics file

I still haven't find the Maths work yet. Erra's at my house. We just had our lunch, very very spicy yet delicious maggi. Heh! Look who's the chef la. Then, SOMEONE say nak webcam, tak webcam2 pon. *points finger at Izah* Ok, I find something to do now. Bye!

e-learn.

2010-03-24T20:53:00.003+08:00

Actually, I post this entry cos I'm free. There's no school tmr, its Elearning Day. Yay! And, Erra coming. Double yay! K, then just now I had school. A big big bee came, again, during our Physics Test. Then, people started screaming. I was one of them. Cos its like really BIG! Then, the worst part right, I heard it crawled on my back when i was crawling to my friend's place. OMG! If I saw it, I bet I'll freaked out like hell. OMG! OMG! OMG! Then, went to Salvation Army for Service Learning. In the bus I was like thinking, "Am I really going out with 3J and my new teachers?" Haha, cos I'm still like new in the class. I don't know la, but I think I'm like the quiet2 kind. Lol! Then, there's this thrift shop. OMG! The bags there, some were like really awesome and boohoo, I didn't like bring much money and I really like regretted it! Urgh, they sold it for half a price for students. Should have just used the remaining allowance for the week, then, ask Mum for some more. Then, Mrs Leong was like bugging us to be quick. Grrr! K, I'm off now. Byee!

Friends, we should go the the Thrift Shop sometime together :D

stopping it.

2010-03-20T15:24:00.002+08:00

You know, I regretted askin for it. But since that I did and there is no way I can turn back the clock, I have to move on. Yes, move on. Cos you're moving on and why should I get stuck here? To tell you the truth, I'm missing you, more than a friend. Much much more than that. To know that how much you've change in such a short time, it encourages me to do the same thing too. I don't know what my plans are going to be. But I know, its going to be something thats worth in the end, thats all I'm hoping for.

Popeye.

2010-03-18T21:45:00.004+08:00

Studied with Erra and Elya. Ate at Popeye and I think I'm in love with the fries there. Heh! Went to Mac to study and Atz came. They started to help me woth POA. Yay! Then, Fahmi came and went off to tuition. I think I'm getting good at Direct and Inverse Porpotions. Heh! Just need to work on my speed. Then, after tuition, walked Fahmi back home.

And, HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY MOMO! :p

Camp.

2010-03-17T13:55:00.005+08:00

Camp was fun I guess, and meaningful too.

Day 1 (Saturday)

Report to camp in full-u because I wanted to go for CD Service Day. So fun, met Nas, the CD Day friend. My group got 3 guys and 1 girl (me). Then, I don't know how to make friends. Seeing that their rank is lower than mine, I assume that they are younger than me. So, I asked for their age and yup, they were. Yay! So, I dodn't feel shy to make friends. Aziz, this guy from Northlight so noisy but funny la. He make our group feel to lively. There's Nicholas and this guy, the name starts with Muhd B something. Hah! Then, done. Went back to school carry on with my First Aid duty cos I under Welfare mah. Yeah! Then, help do photo frames for the seniors. At night, everyone go nightwalk and Year 3s and Adilah stayed. We sing songs and brought teh tarik to school. Nyahaha! Then, sleep.

Day 2 (Sunday)

Wake up at 5, do some reflection. Cos we cannot sleep for 9hrs thats why we woke up early. Then, slack, prepare for Farewell. Ate yesterday's ration with Cherie. Then, PT. Seeing that Erra didn't quit, I stopped myself from quitting the PT. Wah, Erra da power seh. Haha! I thank her for that. Then, after PT, breakfast. Had bread and Milo with Nadia. Then, I had to scold the Sec 1s and 2s. Paiseh! I don't like it, I don't want to do it again. I was like shivering maan. Ahh! Memalukan. K, then play Taptap. Take pictures of people pitching tent. Then, it rained. So, went to help for farewell part at Audi. Yay, air con.

Farewell Party

The most awesome-est night ever. The party was kinda not plenned well I must say but I hope they enjoyed it. We sang for them and say some speech. Lol! Then, the Disco thingy was WOOOH! We danced anyhow. I like. Like everything was dark, and they play loud music and there was Dance Battle between the 2 genders. Haah! My Sister won the Best Dress. Yay!

Day 3 (Monday)
Area cleaning, prize-giving. My bestfriend won the Best Camper. Yay! Then, the Year 3s had some debrief and that is when 15 March 2010, 1355h came about. It was a mental challenge kind of thing for me. Woah.

Tuesday

CD Knowledge course. 3hrs of theory, 2mins for revision. 30 mins of test. Ahh! I just hope I pass. Amin! Saw Nadia, Rishi, Sarah and Nicole. Hehe! So nice seeing them there. All the best guys. How I wish I get to go to your POP. I wanna go seh. Oh, and otw home, I think we guys have changed, more together.

Wednesday

Had brunch with Erra Nadhirah near my school after accompanying Sis go Poly. I guess I'll be finishing up my homework. So, yeah. Toodles poodles.

2010-03-12T21:05:00.001+08:00

I GOT CAMP UNTIL MONDAY! :'(
Hahaa .

xcountry.

2010-03-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

Yes, we had cross country today. I think one of my neighbour knows a schoolmate of mine. Heh! We had cross country and I came the 52nd position. Waaaay worse than last year. OMG! But ya know, the timing was about the same like last years. I guess people are getting faster and I'm still with my pace. First ran with FKRR, then when Mimi came I ditched them for a while. Now, I'd like to sincerely apologise for my mistake. But the last part, gua da tak bole tahan wor. Gua betol2 da mcm semangat. But sorry again to have left you guys. Nadia came in 53rd position, Erra 54th and Izah 55th. Cool kan? We should have entered by height or birthday or something. Lols. Then, FKRR teman Elya cari barang bakal matair dier. Haha! Then, got CD meeting. March hols, I wanna relax.

...

2010-03-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

Nonono! No, I don't wanna be emo like last time. K, I just hope its another part of my post-menses thingy. Please, please. And oh, another earthquake happened in Turkey. Did you know about it? Are you thinking what i'm thinking. I hope you are.

loathe.

2010-03-08T18:35:00.003+08:00

I BENCI YOU AH!

I tanak lagi layan you, pasal nanti you tak layan i ah. Da selalu seh kena macam gini. Macam bebual sorang gitu. Da ah, I wait for you to layan me from today onwards, not me layan-ing you. Hmph! I loathe you :@

kla, tak banyak sangat la.

words.

2010-03-07T13:28:00.002+08:00

Yo, sup? Haha. I know my blog is kinda wordy. I'll try to upload some pictures soon. Anyways, here's my new skin. A bit girlish, but nehmind. In the morning I was toasting some bread in the oven and I think the aluminium foil gets over heated and a fire started. I freaked out and ran to my sister cos I don't know what to do (we were fighting). Then, she ran to the kitchen, saw thw fire, and blew it off. Haha, call myself from Ncdcc. See a small fire, da kecot. Hahaha! I wonder how my face looked like. Then, went to madrasah. Now, wanna settle homework.

obstacle challenge.

2010-03-06T11:51:00.002+08:00

Hello! Sorry for not have been updating. Busy to the max! Haha. K, I'll change my background soon, my eyes also get sick and tired of it. No worries people! I shall update on my special days.

2nd march
There was school and it was on a tuesday. But that day was special cos it was my birthday! Yay. Go school, people start to wish me. Thank you! Then, got awesome, lovely, sweet, cool gifts from friends. Thanks again guys! When I returned from morning assembly, I was shocked/terkejot sanagt2 to see balloons on my seat. Like so paiseh like that. Then, recess brought Mum's macaroni down and they ate it. They said it was nice tau, mama. Haha! Thank you Mum for waking up extra early to cook for me. Then, after school, ate at kfc with my primary school bestfriends. It was awesome like wooo! Haha, should do it more often. But I had to rush for CD meeting, I was late, like of course. Heh! Then, when the seniors left us alone for meeting, I make them sing happy birthday song. Haha! That was it, an awesome day ever!

5th march
Another special day, 15 months anniversary. But nothing special happened, cos we had CD. Sec 2s and 3s went to tampines sec to participate in this obstacle challenge course. Ahhh! So stress. We were ok, when we found out we had to tie 2 knots in one string, teros muke blur. Haha! Then, the maze we went out the wrong exit. Haha! Damn paiseh. Then, bandage Cherie and Carinna, then, run 2 rounds with a stretcher and a mannequin. Yup, we didn't win but we did bring something home from there, benjol on our heads cos we hit our head on the table when we rushed the 2nd time out if the maze. Haha! It was fun. Then, after Cd, Fkrr ate together at mac. But before that we walk here and there from kfc, to mac, to prata paradise, to mac. While doing some minah accents, indon accents and bahasa baku. So fun!

K, i think i'm happy, for now. I hope it will stay longer. Done!

♥

2010-02-25T14:35:00.003+08:00

today was just like other typical days. had my common test, sat at the canteen, went home. i don't know what i'm living my life for..

To what you have said, here's my reply: but i doubt it..

:(

2010-02-24T20:29:00.005+08:00

I just feel like letting this feeling out. I don't know why but life isn't as good as what it used to be . I'm not as cheerful as last time , and I'm sick and tired of smiling to people here and there when inside, I just feel like crying out loud and screaming away . Life isn't just the same . Its not only bestfriends , friends or schoolmates stuff , I have to admit that I'm having problems with boyf too. Everything, it just seems to be getting on my nerves. And I'm struggling with my studies . I cry when I'm all alone and sometimes, I wish I had a bestfriend that I can count on. I just feel like a sore loser. I wish there was no such thing as school but only family and God in life. But I'm grateful that at least, God gave me a family thats perfect in my eyes and most importantly, a sister whom I know will be there for me when I need her. I want to forget everything I have. I want to remove them from my life. I want to start anew. Someone who is quiet and invisible.

I'm sick and tired of everything.
I want to start anew.
I can never be happy again.
:'(

heee.

2010-02-20T18:04:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! Nothing much happened on Wednesday and thursday. So, i shall move on with Friday. On friday, we had ncdcc at 3.00. Actually right, it was suppose to be 3.30. Shubli want to meet the sec 3s. So, yaa. After school, I met Nadia and went to her house. After makan there, me and nadia slept for 35mins in her room. cool right? so comfy. And her room was neat la, and she said it was messy. Tsk! I jealous you know. I wished i had my own room. Then, we reach school at 2.55. Fall in with the rest. We did Total Defence Silver then, played games. I don't like the game. Haha! Then, ate at kfc with the rest and lepak at the stage there. Then, home sweet home.

Today, the plan was to revise but it failed. Tsk! Mama lah, ajak go geylang and hospital. but I don't mind. Happy happy! Now, at home, blogging. Facebook is lagging -.-'

percy jackson.

2010-02-16T15:07:00.003+08:00

Just got back homee. Going out again to parkway later. Yesterday, I went swimming with Sis, Fatin, Izah, Nadia and Fila at Fatin's house. It was freaking awesome. Mum cooked beef ball noodle soup and we brought it there. Then, we played games. Find bangle lah, find bottle lah. Then, we had a rescue bottle mission. Hah, those slangs. Then, the security guard came and scolded us saying we were being noisy. So, we nodded and said 'hmm'. Then, he was like, "What hmm hmm? Excuse me, I'm talking to you all right?" Then, nadia said, "Yaaa." Pathetic seh the guard. Like so extra. I bet none of the residents there liked him. After done swimming, we ate at KFC at downtown. Then, we walk at Tampines 1 and there was like nothing. So, we went home.

Today, went out with Fahmi. Watched 'Percy jackson and the lightning thief'. It was gerek man! Though the monsters look ugly. Then, walk around cs for a while. Then, head home cos he need to see his other girlfriend. Haha! He gave me something. Very sweet, awww. Okay then, I'll try uploading the photos. Bye.

revision.

2010-02-13T14:09:00.003+08:00

Plans for the hols:

Saturday -catch up on my studies (don't disturb)
Sunday -madrasah, out with family revision (don't disturb)
Monday -V'day outing (not free)
Tuesday - revision for common test (don't disturb)

Actually right, if today jadi the v'day outing, I got 3 full consecutive days of self-revision. Then, people no need to disturb me. Tsk. What to do? Friends, I'm sorry if the swimming thingy I never go unless you guys plan it on tuesday.

reunion.

2010-02-12T19:49:00.004+08:00

Awesome! Today was awesome. There was CNY celebration and I skipped class cos I was inside the manager crew for malay dance. Haha! First show, everything was almost perfect. Second part of the show, what the hell wih the P.A crew man? Why the singer's voice cannot hear one? Heart break y'know. Then, met 2E'09 in the canteen cos we had reunion lunch. Haha! Then, walk walk at TM with nadia and Izah with the intention to buy some V'day presents but I only walk walk sekejap. Then, met them at 2 o'clock at Pizza Hut and it was like freaking full house. I heard it was called off, so I went with Nadia and Izah but then, they called me and said that there was space. Awww! We had Pizza, yummy! Ms Tan treat us, cos of last year's Maths deal. (Though, I wasn't included in the 50% who scored distinction in Mathematics. Heh.) So, eat eat eat then, talk talk talk. It was so awesomely cool and nice and comfy. Then, met the rest at Sreet Soccer. Everything had gone perfectly fine until....

P.S: I learn quite a few magic tricks a few days ago. Wanna see?

babi.

2010-02-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

everything is getting on my nerves!
urgh. >:(

I miss us.

2010-02-06T12:08:00.004+08:00

How much longer am I suppose to fake a smile ? How hard should I think that one day we could be back together again ? I miss you .. Hah , remember home econs class . The salad . How could they pull that picture off ? Its like a wow salad . Then , we plan by the end of our sec 4 year , we thought of writting a looong letter for each other to share the expriences we had . I'll wait for the day to come . I'll wait for you . Even of you're not coming back , I'll cherish those memories we had ; you know , I know . Only the both of us know .

FINISHING MY HOMEWORK TODAY ! Please do not disturb .

end.

2010-02-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , NUR FA'IZAH ! ♥
Hope you enjoy your day :)

And I'm so not enjoying mine . I feel so down , low , bottom , shallow , darkest , blue , devastated . Its over , the 2 years . Everything is over . Should I talk about it ? Should I cry over a spilled milk ? I am currently , cos it just happened . A few minutes ago . She ended it , we're just schoolmates . I'm not a worthy friend , am I ? That is why she ended it . I feel bad . I know I am in the wrong for not telling her earlier . I shouldn't have even talk about it in the first place . My weekdays are just going to be ... dim cos it has just lost its spark . I lost a shoulder to cry on , an eveready listening ear , a crazy , random , retarded partner I've been sharing my happiness and sadness together . How am I suppose to live my life tmrow ? Idk . I really don't . I feel so stupid like that . Like bullshit .

Its just too devastating for me ..

CPL SHIKIN

2010-01-31T11:51:00.004+08:00

LCP SHIKIN TO CPL SHIKIN ! Woohoo :D
Yaa , had promotion parade on Friday . At last . Lols ! Kembang ah eh ? K , so leave at 5.30 with izah and nadia to send Shahirah back to Australia . Haha ! Bye Shahirah . Then , someone is suppose to come at 3 with the uni , that person didn't turned up . Why ? You've change . I'm sorry to say that . It hurts me to see you like that . Haiz , I really don't know . Then , another person changed . Why ? Who am I now in your life ? I feel like I'm something that you can throw away anytime if you don't need me . Seriously , thats how I feel everytime . Lets call this a short pause . Find your true self . I can barely recognise you .

:D

2010-01-24T13:03:00.003+08:00

YES ! Finally I get a chance to blog . have been busy these few days . Actully , very very busy . I've managed to survive the NCO Camp . Woohoo ! Not stay until night one ah . Now , must finish all the homework -.-'

Day 1:
Did drills and some planning for the Sec 1 Orientation Parade . Chanel , Matthew , Sarah , Hui Ling and Kenneth was in my group . Group 3 ah ! So , we plan not finish continue tmrow and it turned out to be a nice plan . Heh !

Day 2:
Did some drills and presentation of our plans . Results were out in the same day and Group 2 and 3 was chosen . Yay ! Then , when we were presenting , urgh ! Someone ah , spoil it . Dude , write out names for people to present and you were like taking all . Urgh , could you please listen to instructions next time . It pisses me off maaan !

Day 3:
It was the execution of the plan cos it was on Friday . Year 2s was doing some badgework then , we all go do the Amazing Race . I am one of the facilitator and I was in charge of Group 1 , I called them the "sunshine" group . Haha ! Okay lah , they're still a bit quiet . Then , after all the games , guess whose group won ? MINE ! Hahaha . K , show off ah kin . Shhh ! Then , they never share with me the prizes . Sobsob ! :( Haha ! Nvm lah .

Day 4:
We had PT early in the morning and waaah , like so woow ! I breathe like what already seh . Run here , run there . 10 pumpings for every ball that grop on the group while playing handball . Tapi gerek lah ! Heh . Then , we had sponsored breakfast . Cheese bread , sugar bread . I had the sugar one ! After breakfast we had commitment test . We had to jump facing backwards on this blanket supported by my other friends . Then , we go upstairs to listen for some leadership talk . Then , lunch . Then , MOI lesson . Then , drills . Then , self-evaluation . Then , dah abis ! I felt so the wooo . Then , yes ahh . Over already . NCO ah eh !

mia.

2010-01-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the mia-ing! Uhm , just wanna tell you guys I woun't be updating much. Have been busy with school . Haiz ! Anw , school just now was funny especially during assembly . Got so many mistakes seh . Haha ! It was funny . Then , after school ... Hmm , i lost the both of them . I mean , I can't handle to much kacau-ing just now and I broke down and to them , its meaningless for them to say sorry . Why me ? I don't wanna fight too . But when I said enough , I really mean it especially to you lady . Now , they're blaming me . Was I in the wrong ? Huh ? Have I change ? How was I the last time ? Less of showing attitude , are you sure ? :'( You guys , if you guys love me so much , why did you guys did that to me ? If I was wrong , show me the way . You guys just don't know how much difference it makes being the last child of family , do you ? It hurts me when the 2 of you said that , I just cry and leave the 2 of you . I din't shout at you even . I just wanna get out of the mess . And you guys , .... I really don't know what to say . I've lost myself in this thing ...

Just because I cry and leave you guys , you people make the matter worse.

constipation .

2010-01-12T19:37:00.006+08:00

, I thot you would.." , ..have understand me that all I need that time was you ." Even if I show that I don't want you to be with me , that deoesn't mean I don't need you . That has always been the way I play the game .

Anyways bloggie , I really got no mood to blog today . But I don't wanna make it dead . I had CD today and suddenly , my stomach ache . I swear the toilet in school wasn't comfortable and I really need to go home that time . Then , they told me to stay until 5.30pm ! I mean like WHAAAT ?! Dude , my journey to home is like 30 mins and you took that precious time if mine . I was really not feeling comfortable there and I really need to go home ! Which part of my face expression wasn't clear enough to you . Then , something happen . I don't wanna mention lah . People just don't seem to understand my face expression today .

Yesterday was fun tough , and this is to readers out there ,

SOMEONE DIG HIS NOSE AND STICK IT ON A TREE !
Gross .

i miss you.

2010-01-10T18:24:00.004+08:00

WHERE IS MY SUNSHINE ? My only sunshine . Okay , I'm so bored . I'm missing that 'fahmomeh' guy . Heh ! I mean like , I wanna go out with him to somewhere far far away , but too bad , we have curfew . Nevermind , I can wait till I'm 21 years old ? Thats the age where most people get their freedom . Haha , kin zaman kuno lah . K , cut the crap . Byebye ! (:

P.S : You look closely at the Sun , you can see my sunshine face . Hahahaa !

ily.

2010-01-08T22:08:00.004+08:00

Harlo people ! :) School was not so bad , but not so good either . Then , helped out Mum for a while with Erra . Go back home to change and head off to school for ncdcc . Today is a bit slack . It was PT kit , yayness ! Haha . People were divided into groups for recruitment day . Nadia , Hui Ling , Sharwin , Kenneth , Ivan and I worked together for rescue and stuff . Fun and funny . Haha ! Then , FKRR were in the rally contingent . Hooray ! After parade , ate at kfc and went home with Erra Nadhirah .

FKRR , (in advance eh?)
HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY ! ;P
Lets boogey ! Tomorrow will mark our one year of friendship . We have sure gone through a lot , the ups and downs of life . No matter what , we're still together until now . I wanna thank you guys for everything that you have done for me and for our friendship . Thank you for lending one another a listening ear , a shoulder to cry on and a helping hand in our time of need . In other words , thank you for always been there . We rawk lah , like duh ! Okay , I wanna update our bloggie .

bang.

2010-01-07T20:14:00.003+08:00

I tell you what I did eh ?
Anw , sorry if there isn't much photos for now .

Tuesday:
A lot of hall programmes and I had recess with Izah jek cos Nadia wasn't in school and Erra got coucnil duties . The Chinese Opera ah , its really sickening . I dozed off for a while . After school , I was supposed to attend this Hildan Torch rehearsal , but they needed one only . So , I went off and leave Kenneth . Haha , sorry dude ! Met up with Fahmi , Isa , Eugene , Carinna and Nelson . They all wanna go jogging . Then , Fila came . Then , they jog . Then , all go home . Then , Fahmi and I ate at Prata Paradise . Then , went home . At night , the most unforgetable incident happened . Not telling you people .

Wednesday:
We started school as usual . Get to meet new teachers . I think I'm okay with them , most probably . Malay class was awesome ! After school , followed Izah go Nadia's house . Then , all of us met Isa and Fahmi go popular . Bought donuts , yum ! Then , I was lazy to go study at library , I went home instead . Had dinner with Mum & Dad .

Today:
I don't really like my Maths teacher , but my chemistry teacher is like damn cool ah . So cute seh ! Haha ! I keep coughing these days . I don't know why . Hmm , I was alone during recess , no clique seh . Sobsob . After school , met Fahmi then , ate at KFC with Isa and him . Nadia and Izah came along after that . Then , went for tuition . The class was okay , but I malu uh . Heh ! That was what had happened for the past few days :)

first.

2010-01-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

School was err .. okay lah . Not so bad , not good either . First day , took cab to school with Sis then , met Fahmi under some voideck . Then , we walked to school and met the rest for some rehearsals . Since it was raining , we followed the wet weather plan and did some morning stuff in my new class , 3J . Heh ! It was on the 3rd floor . It felt awkward at first but , it remained that way till the rest of the day . FT was Mrs Ong . AFT was Mrs Leong . After school , met the cd people then , did some performance . Then , cabot dan beli jam yang sudah lama dinanti kami . I bought blue . Nadia and Erra bought purple . Hooray ! Then , we accompanied Erra to buy a shirt at 'Messy' for someone's boyf . Haha ! Nadia and me then , head back to school and wait wait till the sec 1 dinner time before we started dancing . It was embarassing yet fun . Heh ! The teachers were pleased with us , and ya Ncdcc was the only cca to did this . Hahaha ! Cool right ? I wonder how many people will join . Finish already , eat at mac . Then , Fahmi and I head to some place and started singing some songs and we played this zombie game . Nadia knows about it , haha ! Winks . Okay ,
CHIAOOO !

yay.

2010-01-03T22:15:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S STARTING TOMORROW ! :P
See ya people in school .

Sorry for not been updating regularly . But 2nd Jan was awesome , ate together with the whole family at Uncle's shop . Yay ! Western siol . K , uhm . When school reopens , I'll assure you that .... I still won't be updating that much . Chiao !

new year.

2009-12-31T21:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

[in advance]

Heh , came back for my second post . Well , since New Year is coming in a few hours time , I thought of wishing you people who never fails to read my blog a very happy new year . Hah , macam paham ah . Like what I did last year , I'm going to tell you guys my resolutions for next year .

-Study harder and don't slack like this year, 2009

-Switch off my handphone during class

-Make friends with everyone in 3J

-Less fights , more love with my sunshine

-More hangouts with FKRR

Cool huh ? Chey , nothing extraordinary lah . I just hope that I can cope well with the subject combination they purposely gave me . Amin .

ncdcc.

2009-12-31T13:26:00.002+08:00

I had CD parade yesterday . The very last parade for the year 2009 and waah , only God knows how it felt like . Early in the morning kena shout2 already . The worse part was helping out this teacher carrying down computers , cpu , and printers . But yay , it will be included in our CIP hours . My arms are now aching like hell . It feels like jelly2 like that . Noo ! Then , we had some trainings for the OC Parade and promotion . After all of that tiring training which feels like 'I can't stand it any longer!' , it rained ! Yes , it rained and we do it indoors instead . Ouch , my heart shatters into pieces . Then , I heard there was no promotion parade , those pieces disappeared into the air . It was so devastating . Hah ! Can we not do promotion parade next time and just send those stuff via mail ? Okay , let me talk about today . I woke up at 12.09pm and I felt so the lemah macam tanak bangon dari katil gitu . He's gone to Melacca today . Aww maan ! Its going to be so the boring today . D:

I've did my part by apologising . Its all up to you . If you wanna give me that cold shoulder , I don't mid giving it back to you .

haiz .

2009-12-29T12:59:00.005+08:00

Tak kelakar ah kau buat macam gitu . Aku cakap kau jahat , kau jangan nak jadi sarcastic ah ! At least , explain boleh per ? And you didn't tell me earlier .

You never made me cry this much. :'(

apa daa.

2009-12-28T17:41:00.006+08:00

Sylvia didn't win Spore Idol . Aww maaan ! That was kinda saddening . But I thought Sezairi did improve much better for the finals . Congrats to him ! ERRA , yes yes , I read your blog . I bace everything . I got no problem , but I really miss those time bile we got a lot of free time during the hols and we walk here and there like people takde arah tujuan . Lols ! Then , we talk talk about people and things like that . Heh , remember we watched HSM3 together last year ? Cool eh ? I MISS MY BESTFRIEND (this was suppose to be in capital letters ya know) :D Okay , about today . Had a sister's day out . First , thought of catching Alvin and the Chipmunks in the morning but the tickets were sold out so fast and the queue was very very very long . So , we catched the 1.40pm show . Ate at KFC , breakfast cum lunch , went to cotton on and bought a pair of jeans and a blouse , yaay me ! Saw Dai yi and Ming You . :) Then , bought famous amos cookies . Then , watch movie . Then , buy school shoes . Then , home ! Woohoo . Saw Sofia ard my house area there . Heh ! Da , gitu gitu je . Tapi GEREKK ! Okay , sis turn to use the lappie .

johor.

2009-12-27T18:27:00.002+08:00

HOLA ! I went JB yesterday , yay ! With my other side of the family . K , erm , we shop here shop there . The worst part was , I only had a piece of bread for breakfast cos we had to went out early , had half of ramly burger for lunch , shared a cup corn with sis for dinner , but , had an awesome awesome meal for supper . We had black pepper crab , cereal prawns , tomyam soup , sup ekor , and many many thing else . Woohoo ! I bought shadeys , purple colour . Heh ! The bags there were all so nice , haha ! Nvm lah , at least next year , same bag with someone eh ? :p Thought of buying school shoes , but nope , we buy something else . I bought a t-shirt and belts . Yay , at last ! Actually , thats it lah . Just shop here and shop there from morning till night . We kept laughing in the car and especially when ummi acted out this particular scene which happen in KL last year , it was freaking hilarious . Alright , Im done blogging . Spore Idol today ,
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET SYLVIA WIN ! :(

never knew i needed.

2009-12-24T20:27:00.005+08:00

Heh ! Just finished watching 'The Princess and the Frog' at some website and ahhh , it was so nice . I cried at the last part , lols ! It was touching and sweet . Especially when the firefly died . Hahaa ! Sigh . I find the theme song nice . Am I late to find out about this ? Heh ! K , next time go movie can watch Avatar , right 'someone' ?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ! :D

study.

2009-12-24T14:29:00.003+08:00

Greetings my friends ! Currently , I'm HomeAlone . But fear no more , Bro's coming home real soon and I fried some stuff for him . Sweet kan adek dier ? Haha ! Hmm , Sis go Town with her friends , bukan main cantek lagi dier nari . K , about yesterday . Went out with Fahms . Hah ! Went to the library to study. Not study lah , but did some homework for my Sis . Then , thought of eating rojak india at S11 but it was closed . So , we ate Black Pepper Chicken Buddy Meal at Kfc . Ahhh , so spicyssssss . Seriously ! Then , walk walk , saw Fiqah :) , then , went home . Like that lah the story . I need school to open quickly , I don't feel like how I used to be . The feeling is weird . I need my bestfriend :(

gym .

2009-12-21T19:49:00.004+08:00

Hola ! Last 2 days , stayed at home . Itu pun malas nak blog . Today , I went to gym . Yeah ! We went for the Ladies time kind of thing . Then , got this one guy wanted to go to the gym but the person say , "sorry its the ladies time now" . Hahaa ! So , it was Fatin , Sis and I . Fila came shortly after that . We did weightlifting , cycling , rowing kind of thing and macam macam lagi lah . Then , go stadium to run . Then , Izah came . Call people to cari kerja . Then , slack slack . Then , buy somethings . Then , HOME ! In the bus got this people , bukan orang bangsa kita tapi yang gelap2 siket , nak step big kacau2 kite . Sembarang je dorang bukak lagu geng kuat2 . Sekali kena dgn orang dier , padan muke . K , done .

planet 51.

2009-12-18T21:59:00.006+08:00

Hello hello ! (: Today , went out with Fahmi again to partly make up for yesterday's outing which was cancelled due to some reasons . So , after he go sembahyang jumaat , met him at Mac . Then , go to CS to watch a movie . We had a hard time choosing cos we want to watch different things . Heh ! In the end , we played a fair game . We watched PLanet 51 . While waiting for the movie to start , we ate at Mac and then , head back to CS . We bought this new friendship band thingy , he belanja . Cheyy ! Then , go to different kind of shops and walk walk then , we secretly brought some chips into the cinema . Heh ! So , we watched the movies and got this particular kid ah , so irritating . Kick my chair like whaat ?! Luckily , its a small kid . Give you chance ah . Haha , kidding lah ! Then , after we watched the movie , he sent me home . Awwwww , haha ! Mepek .

Heyy Dude , it was really fun today except that it would be a little bit better if we had the whole day to ourselves . Hah , gelojoh punya orang ! But still , I enjoyed the day as much as the rest . Seriously . I love you sunshine !

ERRA'S BACK FROM MALAYSIAAAAAA ! ;p

alone.

2009-12-17T16:06:00.006+08:00

Hello ! I'm so bored at home . Let me see , Sis out , Mum & Dad working , Bro NS . Oh wait , I'm alone at home ! No wonder I'm bored . Hahaha , okay . Cut the crap . Suddenly , I miss 2E . Next year , we'll be going our own separate ways . ErraBestie won't be in the same class with me . And those 4 guys , my other 4 friends , aww maan , none will be in the same class . Oh , and John . Haha , the botak guy , my Maths Rep buddy . Luckily , got Azfar , my kakak . Good , we can go recess together2 , go Malay class together2 . Haha , no lah ! He got his guys friends . Hah ! 2E rocks all socks . Haha ! I wanna be hyper and hardworking next year , I don't wanna let anyone down , not a single person . I hope . Yadayadayada , I wanna do chores . Byee ! If only those words are easy to say .

Credits : Pictures taken from Ms Atika's FB profile , if you guys remember her :)

ehem .

2009-12-15T21:22:00.004+08:00

MET FAHMI TODAAYY ! ;P
& it sure wasn't a good beginning , middle but somewhat a good end .

funky fai.

2009-12-14T15:23:00.004+08:00

HELLO WELLOW PEOPLE ! ^^

I wanna post about yesterday cos yesterday was so much more fun than today . Wanna know why ? Cos Fatin , Sis and I attended Faizal Isa's party .We paid $19 for it so its a yes -yes for us to go . First , took bus to interchange and met Fatin in the MRT and then , head off to Bugis which lead us to Bussorah street . Then , from Bussorah street , they brought us to the venue and the place was like heaven . It was so nice and comfy with the pillows and stuff . Even the tables were like pillow-like . Then , we made 2 new friends , cool right ?

After all of us were settled down , Faisal came and the party started . First , they played some games like 'Don't forget the lyrics' of which Faisal sang for SG Idol and sing some songs . They randomly pick people and thank God none of them was us . Then , we celebrated the December babies birthdays and cut cakes and things like that . After that was performances by the Committee Members of the Funky Fai and they launched the fanclub . The President of the Fanclub was so kecoh and cute . Then , it was makan time I think . That was when the rest of the Awesome Foursomes came ; Tabitha , Farhan and Duane ! So , after eating the 'awesomely well-cooked' food , it was singing time . Duane sang Bad Romance by Lady Gaga and he did it like so well . I swear it was entertaining . Then , Tabitha sang Who's loving you or something . Ahhh , cair I ! So nicee . Then , Farhan Shah sang Teman Istimewa by Taufik Batisah . They save the last for the best and of course , the last was Faizal Isa . He sang a total of 3 songs . First was stop and stare , then , this Indonesia song by Hijau Daun and Eyes on you by Sean something something . We end the whole thing with photo taking sessions and stuff like that but , we didn't take any photos with them cos of 2 reasons . All we had was camera phones and so many people were crowding around them but , we managed to get their autographs .

Pas tu , Sis , Fatin and I lepak2 pat Kampong Glam Cafe and had drinks . Did I mention that Faizal Isa actually remember my Sis cos that time we were there for Sleeq's BBQ . He actually bend forward to look at my Sis . Jealous I ! Hahaa . K , whatever . I got to go . Sorry if it was kinda brief , but if you guys were there , you would have enjoyed it as much as we had . Right Sis and Fatin ? Hahaa ! ;D

hello, goodbye.

2009-12-12T17:25:00.004+08:00

Haiz , I just got back my appeal results . Unfortunately , the appeal wasn't successful . In other words , next year I'll be taking 8 subjects . English language , Mother Tongue , Mathematics , Elective Geog & SS , Pure Physics , Pure Chemistry , Additional Mathematics and POA . Can die seh like this . I have to manage my time well , of course I won't forget my gfs & bf ! :D Hmm , something bad happened yesterday . I won't forget it neither will I forgave such kind of treatment . You were just too much ! Last time was my head , now you hit my jaw . And good thing , it affects my head and I've been getting bad headaches eversince then . I'm sorry if I hurt your wrist with my long nails , I wasn't able to trim it yet . But that doesn't equals to what you had done with my head and my jaw . You don't love me right ? Thats why you've been doing this thing . I told you my mouth is my strength , bear with it or just shut me up . No need for you to use force on me . I just don't like you !

swimming.

2009-12-10T20:03:00.006+08:00

HELLO ! Let me talk about yesterday first . Well , we went swimming at Fatin's house . And when I mean 'WE' , it was Fa'izah , Nadia , Nadia's cousin (Shahirah) , Fi'la , Fatin , Sis and me . Erra's grounded , so yeah . Hope she's doing fine . Actually , we were all suppose to watch New Moon together . Unfortunately , almost all were not able to watch and so , I watched New Moon with my Sister @ Ehub . It was a nice movie , and I like it when Edward and Bella are back together again . Heh !

Then , Sis and I went to Fatin's house and suprisingly , all of them we already there IN THE POOL ! Hahaha , I guess we were late . So , we played with the water and did some jumping-in-the-water shots . It was cool . I grabbed some pictures from Izah/Fila's camera . Like those up there . We stopped swimming at 6 and we showered .

Then , we ate at this hawker centre at Downtown and I bought Sirloin Steak . Yummeyh ! The price also yummey ($8) . Haha ! Then , we bought this huge huge candyfloss . Its even bigger than the size of your head . OMG ! Lawls . Erm , bought this honey candy and took 3 home . Before going home , we took some pictures . Overall , I find it was nice and I just made a new friend . Haha , Nadia's cousin and one thing I didn't meantion bout her is , she's from Australia . Cool right ? :D

Today , watched a bollywood movie at 12 midnight and 12 noon . Case dah mendak . Then , I go bathe and went to TM with Sis . I need to change for Mum a blouse and she liked the one we chose for her . Yay ! Then , walk walk around TM and CS and bought Famous Amos . Yummeyh ! Then , go Pasar Malam around my house area and bought some clothes . Thats much of it , so chiaoo for now .

P.S : I'll miss you . I'll miss those late night calls . I'll try to wait , wait for that day where thhe stupid MIO thingy can pasang that thing in your house which is like 29 Dec 2009 . Aww maan ! :(

good news .

2009-12-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

Haloo people ! I'm wating SG idol . I want Slyvia to win , oh God , please ! Heh . Anyways , the HSM thingy , it was like whaaaat ? They are like insulting my bestfriend's (Fiqah) husband , Zac Efron . And that 'Ashley Tisdale' , ewww ! Nah , but they're good at dancing . Here's a thing , i wanna update bout Bro's NS . Bro called Mum just now (Mummy's boy; heh !) Then , he said ALIFF AZIZ is in the same NS as him but , they're in different group . Bro said the boys asyik kacau2 dier , and he looked kinda pissed ! Hahahah , padan muker ah . Lain kali , da jadi supstazz , jangan nak step big . Kan sekarang , da gaul dengan orang biase da kena kacau2 . Tsk tsk . But it so cooool !

bye big brother .

2009-12-08T15:29:00.002+08:00

Waaassssuuuuppp ? Hoho . Look at the title ! Yup , I'm gonna share with y'all a very very sad story . Haha , just kidding . Okay , lame . Stop it .

Okay , so its like this . Today , I wake up really really early at 5.30am (and I slept at 2+ cos thats the time I usually sleep this hols -.-') cos the whole family decided to send my Big Brother for his NS thingy . I only had a sip of coffee before I went out . Sheesh ! Reach tamp inter around 6.30am and took MRT all the way to Boon Lay though there's a shuttle service at Chinese Garden . Heh ! At Boon Lay inter , I bought BBQ Pao . Yummeyh ! Then , we took 172 to Civil Defence Academy a.k.a CDA . Lawls ! So , we walk walk and then , we had to separate with Bro cos he was wanted . There was a so-called 'Camp Tour' by the officers there . I saw their dormitories , and it was freaking awesome . The bed was 7 inches thick dude ! Then , I saw their food . Waaaah , got breakfast , luch , dinner & supper . Gerek per hidop ? After that we had our refreshments . Then , went inside the MPH or whatsoever to watch the video clips of SCDF since nong nong time ago . Then , the NS boys had to say their pledge , which makes them look really weird but cute , and we all had to sing the National Anthem . Then , we were given only a few minutes to talk and say our last words to Bro . Haizz , macam macam karena orang orang pat sane . Anyways , he was placed in team Charlie . Heh ! Then , tumpang I-Don't-Know-Who punyer van to Jurong Point and we ate LJS there . Yum ! Then , took MRT home . But Mum and me went jalan-jalan at TM and CS . I bought this blouse and a blue B ! Its looks awesome on me . Wooots ! Then , blah blah blah . Bought things at Sinma and CK and then , homee .

Now , I WANNA SLEEP . So , SHOOOOOO !~

still waiting .

2009-12-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

Eh school , where's the results for the appeal ? Heh , just now order Canadian Pizza with Sis . We were so hungry although Mum got cook . Ahh , Bro leaving for NS tomorrow . Did I mention he got into Civil Defence . Like sisters , like brother . Hahaa ! All the best ah bro . I have to admit , I'll miss your karena at home . Haizz . He'll be back every weekends though . Anyways , I'm so bored I've decided to write another post on bloggie . Heh , mendak ahh . Let me see , I'm plan-less this whole week . Swiiming kat umah Fatin jadi tak ? Erm erm erm , okay , lets just wait for the appeal results .

erm .

2009-12-07T15:35:00.002+08:00

Hello hello ! I just checked elearn for the appeal thingy and guess what ? They said I'll get the results via mail . Sheesh , I'm still waiting for it . Its seriously so nerve-wrecking , ahhhh ! *sigh*

pictures .

2009-12-06T20:29:00.010+08:00

Bloggie , I'm back ! I thought of uploading photos . Heh ! The picture on top was taken just now , while the pictures below was taken on 5th Dec 2009 except for 1 . I won't be seeing this guy here for a week . Gaaah , he's so busy . Nevermind , I shall understand .

I ♥ MI !

huge crush .

2009-12-06T19:27:00.005+08:00

Hello bloggie honey ! Today , I didn't go madrasah cos both Sis and I had mensuration and it was Sis first day , so its kinda pain for her . Then , Mum asked us to accompany her go to this wedding ceremony . It was held at the park there near Pasir Ris Park . Very nice , but it felt a little bit awkward . When we came in , Sis freaked out cos she saw this guy whom she had a huge crush on eversince she saw him at this wedding ceremony . He can sing bollywood seh . Hah ! So , she freaked out , saying , "He's here ! He's here !" I was like , "Where ? Where ?" And she made me tripped over some thingy . Maak , malu seh . All the Makcik2 da melatah , ade cakap , "Gee , anak kau jatoh Gee!" to my Mum . Ahhh , malu per ? Then , Sis asyik tengokkan itu lelaki je . Sempat amek gambar sembunyi2 . Tsk tsk . But cool lah , cos at last , she's crazy over someone this bad . Erm , okay , maybe not so bad . Tummy pain , got to go . Chiaaooo !

P.S : And Erra , my bestest bestest friend , thank you for the wish at your blog . So sweet ,
I LOVE YOU , ERRA NADHIRAH BTE ZULKIFLI ! :D

a year, sorta.

2009-12-05T14:39:00.003+08:00

Hola amigos ! Its so pathetic , I'm having my monthly mensuration and it sucks . I kept quiet all day long cos the pain is really unbearable . Pfft , I can't even show people how happy I am now , today . Heh , I'm lovesick . I cried tears of joy yesterday night , for the second time in my life . Time does fly fast . The next thing you know , you've gone through a lot . The ups and downs of life . I love you , and I really really do ;D

appeal .

2009-12-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Eh , asal aku belom lagi dapat aku punyer appeal nie ? Anyone knows when the appeal results will be released ? And where are the results posted ? Its really freaking me out , I scared I didn't get what I appealed for . Allah , please help me . Hmmm :( Oh , can't wait for tomorrow . Actually , Sunday . Teehee .

videos at marina barrage .

2009-12-03T17:07:00.003+08:00

And Erra , don't forget to invite me to your blog.

marina barrage.

2009-12-03T16:32:00.021+08:00

02 Dec 2009 - AN AWESOME DAY WITH AWESOME PEOPLE !

First , we met at small mac and Izah and Fila were the 'earliest' as usual . Say meet at 12pm - 12.30pm they came exactly at 1pm on my watch . Tsk tsk , haha ! Then , since the rest haven't eat we head to banquet at Wast Point and they started talking about jobs then suddenly , they came up with Faezah's stapler company . Hahaha , what was that all about ? It tickles my funny bone a lot ! Izah and I was interested with this library job , lols ! Then , went to Fairprice to get some snacks for our picnic . Took MRT and then , the shuttle bus to Marina Barrage . Saw Shikin and Illa from Adss , friends from Ncdcc Day Parade , ;D ;D !

Then , we climb up to the open space and lay down the tablecloth Fila brought . Haha ! Sit sit and eat eat and it started to drizzle . We went inside the gallry and walk walk and were fascinated by the beauty of it . Haha , nah , just kidding ! Then , we went to this so called long runway and we sit quite at the end and fly a kite there . Then , a policeman came said we cannot fly a kite there . Haha ! A bit paiseh lah , but we had been flying it for quite some time . So , we sit sit to remain glam and then , went back up to the open space . Then Nadia pity the policeman who had to come a loonng way to say just that to us . Haha !

So , we flew a kite there . We run run run , and it flew . Only for a short while cos there was no wind . Haha ! I'm no sure if something happen over there but the place was sure muddy . Oh , and there were millipedes/centipedes . We don't know which is which .

Then , we got bored and went downstairs to play with the wateerrr ! Did some jumpshots , failed ones ! Haha . Its in Izah's camera . Then , we played with the water and get ourselves wet even though we didn't bring any extra clothings . Fatin , Sis , Izah and Fila did a dare , I'll post the video on the next entry . Haha , they were drenched ! For ice cream sake , tsk tsk ! Nadia and me cool je ! Haha !

Then , someone lean on the wall and there were shapes cos our clothes were wet . So , we make some 'wet prints' of our bodies and took pictures of it , like the one on top . Merepek laa , haha ! MRT-ed back to Bugis at ate dinner at Arab Street , eww ! Then , MRT-ed home and went our seperate ways . Gahh , it was so fun ! FK-R feat Fila , Sis and Fatin . Haha ! Erra , why must you missed it ? Rugi tau ngak , waduh ! Your girlfriends , they're aweosme ya knoww ! And , you're awesome too .

P.S : And Izah/Fila , upload those photo alrights ? :)